Urantia Book 94. The life of Jesus of Nazareth, Joshua bin Joseph, Yeshua, Christ Michael, Sovereign God of Nebadon. On Wednesday they rested. Jesus wanted to go into the hills by himself, but John Mark, a young follower, had made a lunch for him and wanted to go with him. When Jesus reached for the bag containing the lunch, John Mark didn’t let go of it, so Jesus allowed him to go into the mountains with him. They didn’t return until after dark, and Jesus told Mark not to tell anyone of what they discussed, and he never did. Jesus told Mark about the development of children; that everything in a person’s life depends on the first few years of life. A child must have reliable parents who love him or her. The discipline must be consistent. A child is dependent on his parents and his home life for all his concepts of everything intellectual, social, moral and even spiritual, since the child gets his God-concept from his parents. A human being’s entire afterlife is enormously influenced by what happens during the first few years of existence. Jesus praised John Mark’s upbringing because it had turned him into a beautiful and spiritual young man. He said: ” You possess a strong and well-knit character because you grew up in a home where love prevailed and wisdom reigned. Such a childhood training produces a type of loyalty which assures me that you will go through the course you have begun. The UB is of the opinion that: “It is true that many of the objectionable stunting influences and other cramping features of these olden Jewish homes have been virtually eliminated from many of the better regulated modern homes. There is indeed, more spontaneous freedom and far more personal liberty, but this liberty is not restrained by love, motivated by loyalty, nor directed by the intelligent discipline of wisdom.” Note: I was one of those children not raised with love, but I’ve had a lifetime of experience which has told me to “just get over it!” And my viewpoint helps me see that my parents did their best. I had horses when I was a teen, and that doesn’t sound bad at all.***(177.2.1-7).******************************* The apostles were lonely and wished Jesus would come back from his walk; also they resented John Mark for going with him. And they were concerned about his safety. Around 4PM David Zebedee showed up and said Jesus’ mother had been contacted and the whole family was travelling to Jerusalem. David knew that the chief priests were going to kill Jesus; he was convinced that Jesus would do nothing to save himself nor allow the apostles to do anything to save him. He also sent to have his mother come to Jerusalem with Jesus’ mother. But he kept all this to himself. After noon over 20 of the Greeks who had met with Jesus at the home of Joseph of Arimathea came to the camp. Some of them were advanced in kingdom knowledge having learned from Rodan at Alexandria. When Jesus arrived, he wanted to ordain some of them, but knew it would deeply disturb his apostles and his leading disciples. Meanwhile in Jerusalem, the Jewish leaders wondered why Jesus hadn’t appeared to take advantage of the huge and favorable crowds. They were also busy getting ready for Passover and perfecting their plans for destroying Jesus (177.3.1-7).**** Judas slipped from camp and went to Jerusalem to the home of Caiaphas, the high priest. The Sanhedrin was meeting informally to discuss the charges to be lodged against Jesus and how to bring him before the Roman authorities to secure the necessary civil confirmation of the death sentence which they had already passed upon him. Judas was convinced that Jesus would allow himself to be defeated (as Judas saw it) by the Jewish leaders and be killed. Judas did not want to be identified with a leader that went to his defeat and death like a sheep (again, as Judas saw it). Judas pretended to his relatives that he was seeking a graceful way of withdrawing from the “movement.” They let him believe that his withdrawal would be hailed as a great event by the Jewish rulers. One of Judas’ relatives suggested that, while Jesus was a well-meaning fanatic, was not really of sound mind; that he had always appeared to be a strange and misunderstood person. Judas derived pleasure from this remark. Judas found himself being resentful about many trivial things: Jesus had never assigned him a position of greater honor.**He felt he was not appreciated as group treasurer.**His abilities were unrecognized.**He was indignant that Peter, James and John had been honored with close association with Jesus.**He decided to get even with the 3 apostles.** Judas’ hopes would be high and then Jesus would say something to dash those hopes.**He was seized with a terrible conspiracy of confusion, pride, desperation and determination.**He realized it was not money he was on his way to Caiaphas’ house for, it was to betray Jesus. Judas was introduced to Caiaphas and all would have gone well, but Judas announced he would betray Jesus and wanted something in return. At that point all present looked at him with disdain; he would never be one of them. He would be an outcast, which is where he belonged.