Urantia Book 121. The Life and Teaching of Jesus of Nazareth, Joshua bin Joseph, Yeshua, Christ Michael, Sovereign God of Nebadon. Early in the morning, May 18, Jesus made his last appearance on earth as a morontia personality. He appeared in the Upper room as the apostles were about to eat breakfast. He said: “Peace be upon you. I have asked you to stay here in Jerusalem until I ascend to the Father, also until I send you the Spirit of Truth, who shall soon be poured out upon all flesh, and who shall endow you with power from on high.” Simon Zelotes interrupted Jesus, asking: “Then, Master, will you restore the kingdom, and will we see the glory of God manifested on earth?” When Jesus had listened to Simon’s question, he answered: “Simon, you still cling to the old ideas about the Jewish Messiah and the material kingdom. But you will receive spiritual power after the Spirit has descended upon you, and you will presently go into all the world preaching this gospel of the kingdom. As the Father sent me into the world, so I send you. And I wish that you would love and trust each other. Judas is no longer with us because his love grew cold, and because he refused to trust you, his loyal brethren. The scriptures say, ‘It is not good for man to be alone. No man lives to himself.’ It also says, ‘He who would have friends must show himself friendly.'” At this point the narrator goes on to analyze the reasons for Judas’ downfall. 1. Judas was an individualist and unsociable person. 2. As a child, he had been given whatever he wanted and would act out if thwarted. 3. He never developed a way to handle disappointments of life. He blamed others when things went wrong. 4. He held grudges and nursed revenge. 5. He did not like to face facts frankly; this made him dishonest in life situations. 6. He didn’t like confiding in other people. Not once in their time together did he come to Jesus with a personal problem. 7. He never learned that the real rewards for noble living are, after all, spiritual prizes, which are not always distributed during this one short life in the flesh….As a result of his persistent isolation of personality, his griefs multiplied, his sorrows increased, his anxieties augmented, and his despair deepened almost beyond endurance. While this self-centered, individualistic apostle had many psychic, emotional, and spiritual troubles, his main difficulties were: In personality he was isolated. In mind he was suspicious and vengeful. In temperament, he was surly and vindictive. Emotionally, he was loveless and unforgiving. Socially, he was unconfiding and self-contained. In spirit, he was arrogant and selfishly ambitious. In life he ignored those who loved him and in death he was friendless. These are the factors of mind and influences of evil, which, taken together, explain why a well-meaning and onetime sincere believer in Jesus, even after several years of intimate association with his transforming personality, forsook his fellows, repudiated a sacred cause, renounced his holy calling, and betrayed his divine Master.